Author Archives: Pamela Hester King

About Pamela Hester King

Wife, mama, gramma, bestie and friend, colleague and coach. These are my roles. Artist, writer, observer and thinker, gardener and baker; all around creative spirit. These make me. https://pamelahesterking.com https://checkingtherearviewmirror.com https://isitreallyallrandom.blogspot.com

A Wonderful Life ~ Twice

Posted on March 13, 2013 by Pamela Hester King

I have a wonderful life. It’s rich with people I love and who love me. I’m safe. I have room to grow and make a difference. Most of all, there’s my husband, and my son, too. Both to whom I’m … Continue reading →

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Red Light, Green Light, In Between Light

Posted on February 23, 2013 by Pamela Hester King

A day or two before New Years Eve my grandmother called me. She wanted to know how I was feeling. And doing. My infant daughter had died in October. My mom’s dad in September. My other grandfather, her husband, months … Continue reading →

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“Extreme Forgiveness” by Joyce Wycoff

Posted on November 3, 2012 by Pamela Hester King

I have a story telling blog called Is It Really All Random? I read a wonderful story on a colleague’s blog, so it found a natural home on Random where I reblogged it. But it’s a story about forgiveness. “Extreme Forgiveness“, … Continue reading →

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Telling Tales “After School”

Posted on October 25, 2012 by Pamela Hester King

This is a long piece, written a while ago. I’ve edited it but the truth is it covers 19 years and I’m not a good enough editor to distill it further. I place it here now for a couple of … Continue reading →

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Body Surf

Posted on September 25, 2012 by Pamela Hester King

Remember when I mentioned that sometimes I bulldoze my way in with thoughts and recommendations? Yeah? Today I share some of those because they’ve been important to me. Maybe for you, too. You’ll know. So, here is something I learned … Continue reading →

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My Down and Dirty

Posted on September 10, 2012 by Pamela Hester King

I didn’t know it’s Suicide Prevention Awareness Week. Didn’t even know it existed. Seems like something I’d know, doesn’t it? So sue me. I’m aware of the Out of Darkness overnight walk. My son and I occasionally say, Next year we’ll do … Continue reading →

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Un-Ringing

Posted on August 31, 2012 by Pamela Hester King

I remember what I wore that day. What my boy was wearing. We never wore those clothes again. We gave them away. Down to my favorite red winter coat with black velvet trim. I had looked at my watch. My … Continue reading →

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Freshly Pressed

Posted on August 26, 2012 by Pamela Hester King

The editors at WordPress chose “Insides and Outsides” to feature in Freshly Pressed on the WordPress home page. For you non-blogger types, this is a really nice distinction spotlighting noteworthy blogs that may otherwise go undiscovered. It also means certain benchmarks … Continue reading →

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Insides and Outsides

Posted on August 24, 2012 by Pamela Hester King

I’d always been round. A chubby child. Pleasantly plump. Pink cheeks on fair skin. Dark, dark, wavy hair. A cherubic babe from a Renaissance painting born to a later era. I felt like a near-miss. Mine is the least reliable memory … Continue reading →

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If You Hear Tears in the Night

Posted on June 16, 2012 by Pamela Hester King

I didn’t know my son, whose second floor bedroom was above mine, could easily hear me sob at night. Tears held back in daylight came to find me then. Sorrow already surfaced recycled in the dark. Switching sides of the … Continue reading →

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